第1章
Seven months pregnant. That was the night a rival family blew the Romano estate off its foundation.
The east wing came down. One gap by the window — barely big enough to get through.
I had both hands around my belly when I looked at my husband, Don Dante Romano, and said, "Get me out first."
Gianna Ricci's eyes went glassy.
"Valentina's carrying your child. Of course that matters more than my life."
Dante's face went dark.
"Her father took a bullet for mine — died shielding him. I swore I'd protect her for the rest of her life!"
"You're the Donna of this family — the Don's wife. The family comes first."
"You can't even see the bigger picture?"
"What makes you think you deserve to be Donna?"
He pulled Gianna out first.
A second later the beam came down and sealed the only way out.
Dante's voice came through the rubble, flat and cold.
"Sit in there and think about what you did. My men will come for you."
That wait lasted seven days.
When the second collapse hit, my mother threw herself over me.
This was the woman half the New York underworld knew better than to cross. Mrs. De Luca. And there she was, back arched over me, taking a support beam with her body so it wouldn't take mine.
Blood came up with every cough, spattering across my face.
She died in my arms.
I got out a distress call on the family's emergency channel. I called Dante forty times.
Nobody picked up.
On the seventh day they dug me out.
The rescue captain's eyes were red when he told me.
"We got your signal day one. But Don Romano said the east wing was evacuated. He handed the fire department the wrong floor plans."
"We were digging in the wrong place the whole time. We only found you today."
I went cold all over. The tears came before I could stop them.
My mother didn't have to die.
A few yards away, Dante was down on one knee, tying Gianna's shoe.
He saw me covered in blood and all he did was frown.
"I just wanted to teach you a lesson. How was I supposed to know there'd be a second collapse?"
"The punishment's over. I'll make it up to you."
Dante Romano.
We don't have a future anymore.
……
"Valentina, I swear I didn't know it would be that bad."
"Dante was just worried about me."
Gianna looked at me with tears pooling in her eyes. I ignored her.
When they carried my mother out, her body was still locked in the shape of shielding me.
Her back was still arched over me, like a shield that had held until it broke.
One of the rescue workers told me quietly that nearly every vertebra in her spine was broken.
And she'd still been holding on when she died.
Every second she held, my baby and I got another second.
Claire Bennett got there and put her arms around me before she said a word.
I looked at my mother's body and felt something crushing my chest like stone.
I couldn't even cry.
Gianna had gone white. She kept shrinking behind Dante.
He put himself between her and the stretcher and turned to the workers.
"Move the body. Quickly. Gianna's going to be frightened."
I looked up at him, eyes burning. "Dante Romano. My mother is dead."
He rubbed his forehead.
"I know. Which is exactly why there's no reason to put Gianna through it twice."
Something drove straight through my heart. I pushed myself upright and slapped him across the face as hard as I could.
"Get out."
Gianna threw herself in front of him, sobbing.
"It's all my fault. Dante was afraid I'd fall apart. He stayed with me all night."
Dante pulled her behind him immediately. His eyes went cold.
"Your mother is dead. That's a fact."
"There's no reason to take it out on Gianna."
Even Claire leaned in and lowered her voice.
"Valentina, don't do this."
"Gianna's scared enough already. You don't have to push her over the edge."
Gianna clutched his cuff. Her voice shook.
"Dante, I'm scared."
He wrapped an arm around her.
"She's shaken up. She's not in a good place right now. I'm taking her out of here."
"Take some time to calm down."
She'd been at his side for five minutes and already his heart was breaking for her.
It never crossed his mind how terrified I'd been — seven days and seven nights in that darkness.
At the hospital, the doctor finished the exam and his face was grim.
"There's still a heartbeat. But it's critical."
"You need to transfer to a high-risk maternal center. Somewhere with better equipment. Soon."
I hesitated. Then I decided to give Dante and me one more chance.
I called the Romano family's private medical team and told them to arrange the transfer immediately.
The voice on the other end said, "Donna, the Don froze your medical trust. We can't cover the private team or the transport."
I just sat there.
The De Lucas had money. Obviously.
But after the wedding, my personal funds had been administered by the Romanos.
My mother died with no warning. The De Luca family trust hadn't finished transferring to me.
The only money I could still touch, Dante had locked.
I called him.
His voice was calm, like nothing in the world had happened.
"I froze your accounts."
"Gianna says you're too emotional right now. You need to calm down."
Every word scraped out of my throat like broken glass.
"The baby needs treatment now."
I heard Gianna laugh on his end, soft and sweet.
"Dante, see? What did I tell you? She crawls out of the rubble and the first thing she does is make up an excuse to ask for money."
Dante let out a resigned sigh.
"Valentina, don't use the baby as a weapon. Gianna already feels bad enough."
I said nothing.
His tone softened a little.
"Apologize to Gianna. Tell her your mother's death wasn't her fault, and I'll release the money."
I couldn't move.
"What?"
"You terrified her," Dante said. "She hasn't stopped crying. Don't make this harder for me."
"It's fine."
My voice came out level.
Dante thought I'd finally fallen in line. He sounded relieved.
"Valentina. See? Was that so hard?"
I hung up and reached out to the old guard — the De Luca loyalists.
They moved that night.
But by the time the medical authorization finally came through, the baby was already gone.
When the surgical lights came on over me, cold and white, I thought about the first year I was married to Dante.
Back then I couldn't take pain at all.
I'd stub a toe and curl up in his arms, whining and clinging to him for ages.
Now a doctor was clearing out the child I couldn't keep, and I didn't feel anything.
I actually laughed.
Dante Romano.
If loving you was an infection,
I'm finally over it.
第2章
They wheeled me out of the OR and my phone buzzed.
A medical authorization, routed from the Romano family office.
Dante's text landed right behind it.
"For the treatment."
"Stop making a fuss. I'll come home tonight."
Gianna's message came almost the same second.
"I don't like being this harsh. I talked Dante into it — it took a while."
Then she sent a photo.
The two of them, fingers laced together. The blood on his cuff hadn't even been washed out yet. His hand was perfectly steady around hers.
Then a voice note, sickeningly sweet.
"Take the money. Pick out a nice plot for your mother."
So even this scrap of belated tenderness was charity from him.
That night I went back to the Romano estate.
The bombed east wing was still sealed off. The main house had its lights back on.
I sat on the living room sofa and waited the entire night.
Dante never came home.
At two in the morning he texted.
"Something came up with the family. Go to sleep."
I called Claire.
She was certain about it.
"Dante's at the family office. For real."
"Relax, Valentina. I've got eyes on him for you."
Not long after, a mutual friend sent me a screenshot.
Claire had hidden an Instagram post from me.
In the picture, Claire, Gianna and Dante sat at the window of a top-floor restaurant in Manhattan, the whole city lit up behind them.
The caption read:
"My girl finally brought me up here Some people get you right away, some people know you their whole life and still don't!! Love you @gianna"
My vision blacked out for a second.
Ten years of friendship, and she'd been on Gianna's side all along.
The old me would have stormed into the Romano family office and raised hell until the whole building heard it.
Instead I typed one word back to Dante.
"Okay."
"My mother's funeral. Don't forget. I need to talk to you."
Dante agreed right away.
He showed up when the service was almost over.
The doors of St. Catherine's swung open and the wind came in with him. The funeral director lost his place for half a beat.
Gianna was right behind him.
Red floral dress. Full face of makeup.
De Luca rules — even the distant cousins wear all black.
In a room full of black suits, she stood out like an insult.
I stood alone at the head of the receiving line and watched them come, my eyes raw.
Dante stepped in front of her immediately.
"She just thought the dress was pretty."
"Don't make something of it today."
Gianna held out a bunch of red roses, voice small and timid.
"Valentina, I only came to pay my respects."
There was an ultrasound image tucked into the bouquet.
I read the patient name and my fingers locked up.
Gianna Ricci.
6w0d.
Six weeks pregnant.
Dante shot her a resigned look, slid an arm around my waist, and dropped his voice.
"I wasn't going to bring this up today. She felt guilty. She didn't want to hide it anymore."
"It was an accident. But I promised I'd take care of her."
"Your baby and hers — I'll take responsibility for both."
I held that image and my fingertips wouldn't stop shaking.
Dante reached up and gently wiped the tear from the corner of my eye.
"You're still carrying our baby. Don't work yourself up. You'll hurt yourself."
Gianna drifted over to the casket and lifted the framed memorial portrait off the flower wall.
"Valentina, you look so much like your mom."
"Every time you look in a mirror from now on, will you see the way she looked when she died?"
I was shaking with it.
"Get out!"
Gianna's hand jerked.
The silver frame hit the marble and the glass went to pieces. A crack ran right across my mother's mouth.
The whole church went silent.
People in the back rows rose to their feet.
Gianna went pale and crouched down to pick it up.
Dante caught her wrist.
"Don't touch it!"
"It's just a picture frame. Don't cut yourself."
I didn't say anything. Gianna started crying first.
"Dante, I didn't mean to —"
"I know."
He wiped her tears for her, gentle as anything. When he turned to me, his voice had gone to ice.
"It's a frame. I'll have a new one made to match."
I forced myself up and stumbled toward my mother's photo to get it off the floor.
Dante thought I was going for Gianna.
He grabbed my wrist and shoved me backward, hard.
"Enough!"
I went into the memorial table. The tall candlesticks and the wreaths went over with me — hot wax and white roses scattered across the floor.
My incision tore open. The pain curled me into a ball on the floor.
Claire stood exactly where she was. She didn't come.
For one instant, he looked like he couldn't bear it.
Then Gianna let out a small sob.
The step he'd started toward me stopped. He turned back to dry her face, and his voice came out hard.
"You're the one who pushed it this far."
"Stop. You and the baby — I'll make arrangements for both of you."
He turned to leave with her.
And I laughed. The tears ran sideways into my hair.
He still didn't know our baby was already gone.
"Dante."
I called him back and looked straight at that impatient face, and my voice was steady.
"Let's get divorced."
第3章
Panic crossed his face. Just for a second.
Then Gianna took his hand and spoke up, meek as could be.
"Dante, is Valentina still angry?"
She forced out a few tears.
"Maybe you should just let me go. If me existing hurts her this much, the baby and I will leave."
Dante looked relieved.
"Valentina. There's nothing I hate more than being threatened."
I took out the divorce papers I'd already had drawn up.
Dante didn't read a line of it. He tore it to pieces and scattered them in my face.
"You think you can force my hand with this?"
I looked at the paper on the floor and started laughing.
When a man doesn't love you, even your leaving looks like blackmail to him.
After the funeral I handled the cremation, the way my mother had wanted it.
That evening I went back to the Romano estate to pack.
I'd barely stepped into the main house when Gianna came strolling out of the master bedroom.
She bit her lip. Kept her voice small.
"Dante said it isn't safe out there right now. He wants me to stay here for a while."
And Claire was inside the master bedroom, packing for her.
Boxing up my clothes, my jewelry, my things. One piece at a time.
Claire shot me a look, caught out.
"Valentina, Gianna doesn't like using things other people have touched."
"I'm just clearing the room out for her."
Right then Dante came in carrying Gianna's favorite Sicilian pistachio cake, offhand about the whole thing.
"Valentina, take a guest room for a few days. Gianna doesn't sleep well in other rooms."
I looked at him. "When has she ever slept in our bed?"
Dante stopped.
Gianna sat on the sofa, eating her cake in slow little bites, smiling.
"Three years ago."
"You were traveling for De Luca business all the time back then. Barely made it back to New York twice a month."
"Claire and I picked out everything in this house. All of it."
Claire's eyes slid away.
Something passed over Dante's face too. Then he frowned.
"Gianna was doing you a favor, overseeing the renovation."
"She stayed a few nights to make sure the rooms were comfortable. For you."
"And you want to make an issue out of that?"
I laughed.
No wonder nobody ever asked me about this house. Not the style, not one piece of furniture.
The lady of this house was never me.
The old me would have screamed at him until one of us broke something.
I just nodded.
"Don't worry. I only came back for my things."
Dante had a whole speech ready and it stuck in his throat.
A flicker of surprise crossed his eyes. He followed me into the room.
He watched me pack clothes, documents, and personal things, and finally couldn't hold it in.
"You walk out this time, don't expect me to come coax you back."
"Don't worry."
My hands paused. I did look up at him, though.
Five years married to this man.
I said it quietly.
"I'm not going to wait for you to come coax me anymore."
Because there is no "us" anymore.
Claire tried to block me. I knocked her hand away.
"Claire. We've known each other since we were three."
Claire looked at the floor.
"Valentina, I just don't think you should treat Dante this way."
"You haven't formally taken over the De Luca side yet. What do you gain by making an enemy of Dante right now?"
"You keep losing it like this and I'm really done looking out for you."
There was a time I had no friends, and that sentence was the one thing I was afraid of.
Now I just nodded.
"Okay."
Then this is goodbye.
I went to get my mother's urn and Dante suddenly caught my wrist. His voice went softer.
"Stop this."
"Give it a few days. I'll take you out to the coast. Clear your head. Okay?"
He bent and rested his forehead against mine.
That was his move. The one he always used when he was admitting he was wrong.
"At the funeral — I lost my temper. Does it still hurt?"
And right then Gianna screamed in the next room.
Dante let go of me on instinct and ran.
I ran after him.
I got through the door and saw my mother's ashes spilled across the floor.
My hands and feet went ice-cold.
Gianna crouched in the middle of it, choking on the cloud she'd kicked up, coughing hard, gray in the face.
Something cold went up the back of my neck. I dropped to my knees and started scooping the ashes back into the urn with my hands.
Gianna sobbed in broken pieces.
"I only wanted to tidy up Mrs. De Luca's memorial table."
"Did I do something wrong again?"
"Get away!"
I shoved her off.
Dante's face changed.
"That's enough. Gianna has asthma!"
His first instinct was to open the window.
"No!"
I threw myself at him to stop it.
One second too late.
The window opened and the night wind rushed in.
The ashes on the floor lifted and scattered.
All the blood in my body surged to my head.
Everything went red.